Seems like forever since I sat down and wrote. Things have been a bit weird for me lately and I just haven’t had the gumption to sit at the computer and put it into words. Not sure I can even do it now.
We continue to recover Matthew from autism. He is doing really well. Maybe I shouldn’t say “from autism” any more as he certainly no longer meets the DSM-IV criteria of autism. I think we are now recovering him from ADD/ADHD, according to the DSM-IV this is a more likely diagnosis now. I will certainly take the progress, but eventually I want to not be “recovering” him from anything.
I guess I have done it again, I have some how alienated a friend. Well, she wasn’t quite a friend, but she was more than an acquaintance. We don’t agree on what autism is, or how to treat it – actually on even if it should be treated. Oddly I feel rather apathetic to this loss. I think with the adrenal fatigue and utter exhaustion that comes with it, I have no energy to give to this loss, and therefore no feelings toward it. I try to conjure in my mind and my heart a response to her, but I can’t be mean or angry towards her. I also can’t say she is right. The best I can offer is the question if we need to have the same beliefs to be friends. But even that seems like very little so right now I offer nothing.
The kids are home from school and we are readdressing their activities. Matthew and Nico are now taking music lessons together. Matthew has been playing the piano for a little while, and Nico has now picked up the guitar. I have always pictured him as a musician. Who knows if I am right or not.
Speaking of my adrenal fatigue, my acupuncturist says I am so depleted he has no idea how I function at all. I told him I am a SuperMom and we must continue on. He is treating me with his big guns and fully believes I will be back to my old self. I hope so, as this has been extremely taxing. I want to sleep all the time.
Lastly I have been trying to get into watercolor painting. I love it. I am so excited to get my art back. So where have you been this summer?
I hope you’re feeling back to your old self soon Maryann. I can be tough when discussing the “best” way to help your children heal from an health issue. You’ve lived through it so you think she might be able to “hear” you but obviously that isn’t the case. I wouldn’t sweat it either. Just concentrate on healing!
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Kelly, thank you. It is hard to keep this to myself when Matthew is doing so much better. I want to scream it from the mountain tops but I forget that not everyone is ready for the journey or the message. And I sort of forget that when I put this out here many people read what I say but don’t necessarily TELL me they are reading so I don’t know what the feedback is. But I’m too tired to not keep moving forward. I can’t look back. This is such a long journey I have to see it through to the end. thanks for being such an encouraging light. You are so sweet and I’m glad you are on my side!!!!